I’m just sitting here crying because I’m very confused. I’m in school and I feel unmotivated to do anything. The only person I really talk to about my feelings is mycousin but I know she has her only life and problems and I hate making her upset with mine. I just dont feel that close to any one else that i feel like its ok to tell them things that are personal. Sometimes I think I’m quite depressed. I just feel like there are so many reasons I dont want to say what’s on my mind mostly because I’m nervous that I’m gonna be criticized. I never feel that it is normal plus I dont want people to just pity me. I sometimes write things but that doesnt help as much. I want to have good friends but I feel like this may keep me from having friends at all in the end. I’m always surrounded by people and lonely & wanting to do new things but feeling trapped by my shy awkwardness. I’m tired of trying to act perfect and like I know it all. I act like I’m confident but it gets really hard to pretend. I wasn’t always like this, it’s sorta stressing me out. Sorry this is so long but this is the most open I’ve been and I just want to get some other person’s take on it. Is it a good idea to tell this to strangers rather than people I know? What’s wrong with me and what should i do?